||[May. 4th, 2004|10:08 pm]
Thanks to everyone who gave me their advice. I am going to tell management to keep looking for someone else to do this task.|
I think I misled people in one minor way. Project is probably too impressive a term for what I was offered - assignment might be a better word. No change of job, no title, no change of desk, no change of supervisor - just updating some out of date research (on legislation) that we all collectively use. It's tedious and I didn't think my efforts were appreciated the summer of 2000. I updated the British Columbia statutes for them as a sample and put it in a new format. 3.5 years later it is still not on the G:\ drive that we all use.
I think one of things that annoyed me most was my supervisor tried to get me to say yes by saying I was the best person for the job. I asked why. (I wanted to hear management's reasoning.) He told me it was because I worked on it before. So - no because you have a law degree or anything relating to my skill set. Because I worked on it before. (Actually the only reason I was stuck with this lemon of an assignment in 2000 was because I happened to run out of files and need to order more on the day that management was looking to assign this to someone. So even then, it was not about matching my skills to the project, but because I was the random person they encountered. Sort of like being caller 7 on a radio station, but in a bad way.)
Hunter was the first to reply to me and had the best reasoning. She told me that this assignment would make me miserable. And, since she is in a higher section than me she has heard that there might be more assignments and projects becoming available to people - and she warned me that I wouldn't want to not be able to do a project or assignment that I actually wanted because I was stuck doing this one.
At a deeper level, cynicallynaive, fairydarkfire, and Acorn-girl wrote to me about looking for other jobs. Even Tyr wrote to me (in private email)asking if I had a career plan. If one person had said it, maybe I'd brush it off. But having 3 people ask me why I am staying here has forced me to think "Why am I not actively looking for something else?"
The short answer is that I am at the government until my husband has a permanent full-time job and that we can live on his salary and my salary from church, and then I'll just quit and be a full-time mom and part-time Youth minister. However, given that he has not had a permanent job since we've been married in 1996 (working only on contract on-and-off), maybe I need a medium term strategy - finding a job that makes me slightly to largely happier to work at until I achieve my ultimate goal of being a full-time mom. I used to look at government competitions, but I haven't since 2001 as I figured that it would not be fair to apply for a job when I am only part-time and intend to quit as soon as I can.
So I guess, as of tomorrow, I am officially job hunting.