|Waiting for the next wave
||[May. 14th, 2004|10:08 am]
I was reading over some notes in my office yesterday. Three weeks ago, I started journaling some of my frustrations about ministry down. I hadn't written in 2 weeks and it was interesting to re-read them to see what a difference only 2 weeks could make. Three weeks ago, I decided that I was going to: 1) use some of my 20 hours to read leadership oriented books and pray, 2) keep meeting weekly with Hedwig, and 3) go to either the 8:00 or 9:15 service every week - even if it don't feel like I'm getting anything out of going. (That last one is the sticking point. I frequently feel like I'm half sleeping, half-spacing out my way through 8:00. However, I decided that I was going to stick it through regardless of my feelings.) Overall, these things are having an impact on me and I'm in a much emotionally stronger place than I was 3 weeks ago. I think the Youth Group have all but decided they don't want to go to the Youth event on the 22nd. And I'm at peace with it. That isn't to say that I don't believe that each and everyone of them couldn't get something out of going, just that I am not going to let their spiritual apathy wear me down. Ultimately, I'm only here to advise and offer people opportunities to grow. If people choose not to take them, it is not my fault.|
From the Youth conference I was at last October: a surfing analogy to ministry. (I don't surf, but the metaphor really works.) Ministry is continually riding waves. Sometimes all goes well and you get to ride it all the way to the beach. At this point, some give up, pick up their boards, and leave. Ministry is paddling back out, against the current to wait to catch the next wave. So, I'm waiting for the next wave.
I went to writer's group on Wednesday night. I am inspired to re-work 2 pieces I did for Bardic years ago. (This will make Acorn-girl very happy as she wanted my pieces for her web page, but I never got around to doing them for her.) I also need to get going on writing up my trip report from Norway and London. I have an outline on a piece of paper, but I seem to have a problem actually making myself sit down and write it. I want to get it done before all the details escape me.