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2003 and 2004 [Jan. 9th, 2004|01:34 pm]

Fairy got me thinking that I didn't do a year end review in any of my journals. I used to do this both at New Years and on my birthday.

Things of note in 2003:

-I re-started working 20 hours a week at church last January

-I held a Caldrithig Twelfth Night

-I ran an 8 week youth discussion series

-I discovered and fell in love with Pilates

-after Easter, I ran an 8 week introductory Christianity youth course

-I took middle Eastern dance classes for 12 weeks

-Tyr and I painted my kitchen and retiled the floor

-I went to SoulFest for 4 days with 14 teens and 6 other adults

-I co-autocratted Autocrat's Day Off (which was a misnomer)

-I re-started working 22.5 hours a week for the government in July

-I ran a 1 week Vacation Bible School

-I held a surprise baby shower for Athena

-I wrote a lot of poems.

-I had my first public performance as a bard. (I wrote a poem about Susanna and Cennedi, I emailed to her and she asked me to recite it at Coronation.)

-I started a monthly book club

-I joined a bi-weekly housegroup

-I held a toddler Halloween party

-I had a severe case of writing apathy in the fall, but I got to know a fellow writer and eventually got reinspired.

-I went to a scrapbooking workshop and fell in love with scrapbooking

-I co-autocratted a Caldrthig Christmas party

And of course, I did a lot of devotional reading and journaling. I lost a lot of weight, but I seem to have put it all back on.

And there were a ton of Grace's firsts: tooth, time eating, time sitting, time crawling, time walking, word, etc. But they are her accomplishments for the year, not mine. I just got to observe in awe.

2003's New Year's Resolution was "to be the best mom possible". I don't think I was a bad mom, but I wasn't the best I possibly could have been either.

2004's resolution is to write once a week (one evening 1-1.5 hours). I know what people are thinking - how will I get stuff accomplished if that is the only time I have. The sad truth is that if I write 1.5 hours a week, that will be 6 hours per month more than I wrote in some months of 2003. Besides, this is my minimum goal. If I get on a roll, I am allowed to write more. But, I want to discipline myself to write at least 1-1.5 hours a week.


From: fairydarkfire
2004-01-09 10:33 pm (UTC)
Wow you accomplished alot in 2003. I think you are a good mom to your daughter. It is good to set goals but it is not always easy to keep them.

Good luck to you. :)
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[User Picture]From: vesta_venus
2004-01-11 07:53 pm (UTC)
I suppose that is one advantage of creating a year-end list. It does allow one to feel a sense of accomplishment.

Am I a good mom? I think I come a lot closer on some days than others. One of the problems with a resolution like "to be the best mom possible" is that you can never truely be the best possible because there is always room for improvement. So, in one sense you never achieve your goal, which is frustrating for someone with a high need for achievement.

The last few months, I've felt like I've hardly seen her or spent any time with her. I end up feeling guilty about it, although I'm not sure realistically what more I can do. I could go out less in the evenings, although I usually leave around 7:00 PM and her bedtime is around 7:30 - so if I gave up all my optional evening outings (not counting working in the evening), I'd get to be with her for about an extra hour a week (2 evenings times 30 minutes.)
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