||[Jan. 11th, 2004|11:01 pm]
From the deep to the shallow ...
Was reading more of "Everybody's Normal Till You Get to Know Them". (A book that desperately needs a shorter title - am I sick of typing or writing it out in my journals.) He asks these thought-provoking questions at the end of each chapter. One question gave me pause:
Who, of all the people you know,
a) can you call at 3:00 AM if needed?
b) prays for you on a regular basis?
c) can you drop in on unannounced without embarrassment?
And I realized that it is the same answer for all 3 questions - no one.
How did my life get to this point. I am the kind of person people can call on at 3:00 AM. I do pray for my youth group, friends, and family on a regular basis. Can people drop in on me without calling first? Well I'm not always home. And the place a mess. (Does without embarrassment refer to the person dropping in or the homeowner?) So, how did I let my relationships get to such a sorry state where they aren't truly mutual exchanges of caring and being cared for? Does the lack of mutuality mean that I don't have true relationships, but something closer to ministry projects or people I need to take care of?
And of course, the all important question - now that I realize that I have this problem with intimacy and mutuality in my relationships, how do I fix it and move from where I am now to where I want to be.
Now, for the shallow ...
What on earth am I going to do with my hair? When I watch shows like "What Not to Wear", I love how the stylist can look at this person who is a total mess and create a style that totally works with their face shape.
I'm not even sure what shape my face is. Everyone I've asked (Mom, Hunter, GF - 3 people, not the biggest pole)gives me a different answer. I can't seem to figure out what would look good on me.
I've been growing my bangs out to eventually do a side part that sweeps across my face in an asymetrical way. However, so far, I just have hair that hangs in my eyes and that I have to adjust 30 times a day.